Há um ano atrás, sentia-me demasiado em baixo. Estou a ser sincero. Eu estava com dificuldades em passar no 9ºano, mas consegui passar…para depois meter-me numa alhada que vai acabar num par de dias.

Mas continuando.

Um dia, quando estava a fazer entregas pelas 6 da manhã, vi um cartaz. Dizia exactamente: “XL PARTY Porto – 16 a 19 de Julho de 2009. Vais?”
O que fiz nesse dia? Pedi dinheiro ao meu pai, fiz a minha mãe assinar a autorização para menores e fui lá.

O que senti nesse fim-de-semana foi das coisas mais espectaculares que ALGUMA vez senti na altura. Foi uma espécie de…liberdade. Podia estar a jogar até quando quiser, 24/7. Foi também aí que conheci a falecida Smash. Graças ao Folhadela, foi lá que acabei o Street Fighter Alpha 3.

mas continuemos com o que aconteceu depois desse fim-de-semana. O que realmente mudou a minha vida.

Depois de ter conhecido uma rapariga que ficou muito amiga minha em Agosto/Setembro, chegou Dezembro. na altura, ainda me sentia mal por estar com problemas na escola. No dia 7, juntei-me no FNintendo. Só me juntei porque queria conhecer o lado nintendista português…e porque o BigLord tava lá.
Mas esse dia só foi memorável por uma coisa. Alguém a adicionar-me assim de surpresa no MSN.

Na minha mente só pensava “mas que raio, alguém adicionou-me de surpresa no MSN? E é uma rapariga? tou a cheirar a esturro…”.

mas fui investigar lá no FN. Afinal era uma rapariga. E quando eu a aceitei, foi estranho. Porque era a primeira vez que eu falei tanto com uma rapariga. E sobre algo que eu gosto.

No primeiro dia, nem falamos muito. Excepto a partir da meia-noite. Quando falei com ela, parecia que já a conhecia há muito tempo. E na minha opinião? Soube bem.

No dia 10, para quem se lembra, postei isto no Twitter. Estava em modo depressão. Eis que vem ela falar sobre isso, e uma coisa na nossa conversa longa (4 HORAS. God. tivemos mais horas no futuro.) e algo deu-me um sorriso:

Eu prefiro pessoas como tu. *-* não é ter pena, nao penses isso LOL. é mesmo porque acabam por ser melhores amigos.

E foi neste ponto que senti que podia falar normalmente com ela. sobre tudo. E isso causou uma das melhores amizades instantâneas que alguma vez tive.

Estivemos sempre a falar, 24/7, a partir daí.  Foram sempre conversas reconfortantes, e sentia-me sempre próximo dela. Cada vez que ela falava comigo.

E no dia 15 e a partir daí…foi sempre uma alegria. :’)

Aqui estávamos a falar sobre ela ir ao Porto:

(3:01) Pedro – Godot wi:	…Bastava só ver qual era o comboio que vinha de Coimbra e ia para a linha, nada mais.>_>
(3:02) – Kels.:	ainda me abandonas la!
(3:02) Pedro – Godot wi:	Nunca faria isso a ninguém! D:
(3:05) – Kels.:	imagina que nao ias com a minha cara!
(3:06) Pedro – Godot wi:	…toda alegre e com vontade de me esmagar? Não me importo. D:
(3:06) – Kels.:	eu ando sempre alegre
(3:08) Pedro – Godot wi:	Pronto, vontade de me esmagar e arrancar os caracóis, não me importo. Again. XD
(3:09) – Kels.:	tu metes-me alegre :’< era isso que eu queria dizer!
(3:10) Pedro – Godot wi:	Eu? O_O …Sabes que és a primeira pessoa a dizer-me isso? =O
(3:12) – Kels.:	nao sou nadaa
(3:12) Pedro – Godot wi:	…Yeah, és. :/ *nom*
(3:13) – Kels.:	ainda bem  gosto disso
(3:14) – Kels.:	mas a serio eu quando falo contigo esqueco-me dos problemas a minha volta x_x é taaaaao bom :’)
(3:15) Pedro – Godot wi:	E eu fico feliz por saber isso. (:

E claro, foi a partir daí que podia ter a certeza que confiava nela. É que ela tem um espírito muito animador que consegue meter-me um sorriso na cara, daí termos esta amizade especial há já meio ano.

Portanto, Raquel, BigLord e toda a gente que não parou de falar comigo, mesmo nas alturas más…Obrigado. :’)

Isto vai para a Caixa. Até uma outra altura.

But I’ve been wondering…I’ve been almost 2 months in this blog and I haven’t even wrote about myself. Although most of the people who go here do know me, but still, consider this the introduction post. (which will also be in About Me.)

So, without further ado…

My name is Pedro Oliveira. A 15 year old boy from Porto, Portugal.
I do tend to use smileys on my posts, but I like to keep my professionalism (which is none, actually) and all the seriousness about them here. And yes, the posts are about my life. Unfortunately.
As for my personality…Well, I’m mostly everything. Shy, nice, Good pal, annoying…And I would say lovable, but that led me to a stupid depression, so, no.
My life can be summed up into: Gaming, music, Internet and socializing. Buuut I won’t explain them now.

You mostly know what I’ll be writing here. All that’s on my mind (and kept in a box. YES, IT IS REAL.), and some off-topic stuff that won’t be on Rumble Pack or the Gamer blog.

As for me? I’ll be off now, writing that special post. See you when it’s done. :3

so, this week it’s been preety much the same. Boring school, and boring days. Except yesterday. I felt something I haven’t feli in a long time.

A hug.

And to make it better, a really comfortable one. I never stopped smiling, until I got worried by something. but I forgot it.

Now, subjects are ending early, I’m getting more free and calm, and so I’ll have more time to smile again.
Shush, I need to work on my next post. Hint? It’ll be ONLY in Portuguese.

Now, let’s start. On the 22nd May, 2008, after a long school trip, I wanted to listen to a online radio on my PlayStation Portable. At first, I only heard an anime radio, thanks to my sister. But then, when I found the gaming section of the online stations, I found one that was, personally, my favorite.

RadioSEGA.

If you want to read the rest, hit the jump!

When I switched the radio on, it was playing Sonic the Hedgehog 2 – Final Boss Theme. Some f you don’t know this, but that is my favorite track from the game. And hearing that and lots of beautiful SEGA music, I have found my anti-stress.

Then on the next day, the 23rd, I couldn’t find it anywhere due to an overload of game streams for an hour, eventually finding it. I had fun listening to Sonic 2 and some Space Channel 5 again.

Then arrives the 24th. Spent the day wondering “Should I join the website, or should I not?”, while I glazed at RadioSEGA 5. I registered. Without noticing that I typo’ed on my username. I laughed hours later. Then I introduced myself. I had major laughs with the warm welcome, especially with the postman joke. Damn you Kool Chao.

Then time passed by, and RadioSEGA upgraded to RadioSEGA 6. It was beautiful. Competitions, more updates on the Game of the Month, upgraded forums, it was nice. But some stuff slowed down, staff members quitting, RadioSEGA being hacked and shut down, t’was chaos.

That is, until SegaMark did the move.

The announcement of Project 7, the reveal of RadioSEGA 6.5, which revealed the new feature “Shows & Podcasts”, lots of plugs, mainly in Summer of Sonic ’08 & 09 and in Insert Coin ’09, Partial support from SEGA itself (with the help from SEGA Europe Online Community Manager, Kevin “ArchangelUK” Eva) and the revival of free-for-all requests system, RadioSEGA was reborn and with full force.

In 2 years being on this website, I never had the most fun like any other. Being a part of the community, creating odd memes for the IRC, being a part of 3 shows (“Trial” Show, SEGA AGES E09 and FastFeet’s FoneMix E06) and playing online with the community made me laugh for years.

Thank you, RadioSEGA, for some awesome 2 years. Let’s hope there will be more.

I was going to write down a list of great people on there, but everyone is important in their way, so I’ll just list those that need a honorable mention:

- DarkHedge;
- p_nut_uk;
- DrShaneman;
- 32x;
- Sirku.

This will go on the box. Bye for now.

1 – The necessary song. – Put this ready, and LET IT LOAD.
2 – The Sound effect. – Use this sound effect when listening to the music.
3 – Play the song and relax while you read this post.

Remember my outrage on Wednesday? Where I went crazy about me and my ex? Also known as… this?
Well, I’m going to be honest here. I was indeed depressed because of that story, but today I thought about it in a different perspective. Why did the relationship last one week? What did go wrong?

The answer to that is…because I was too quiet and calm for her. And she broke up.

No, I’m not going to start another melodrama here, because… I don’t care anymore. She didn’t want me… it’s her loss. She should’ve given me another chance to know me better…she didn’t want to. Now, to be honest, I NEVER told her that I was like this. She didn’t even allowed me to clarify that it was our first time together as boyfriend/girlfriend, so it’s majorly her loss. If she did indeed love me, she would give me another chance. She would say “Let’s try this again. I want to know you better”. But she did not give that chance. That proved she didn’t love me.

So I asked myself: “Is it worth crying and suffering from something that did not work? For something you did not tell before going into a relationship?”. I may be the one to blame, I did not tell her that I’m usually too peaceful in front of people, but what’s done is done. I can’t turn back now. I must move on and forget this. I must be happy with everything that I have.  A nice family, really fantastic friends, one awesome best friend, and a calm life. And I’m going to throw that away because of an error I made? Never, I tell you. Never.

Now, care to drink the #01 Blend with me? But before we drink in celebration of life, I’ll just keep this note in the box. Now, let’s toast.

I can pretty much say this: These last few days have been nothing but me being sad over. And over. And over. And over. Fucking. Again. I mean, seriously.

I’ve really fucking had it with these coincidences with my ex-girlfriend that I’m having. They leave me depressed to shit.
First, there was a “friend” that knew her and she wanted me to add her friend’s email address on MSN in late February. Until yesterday, I found out that the email…isn’t actually from the REAL person. Because the real person did NOT know her. In other words, that email was fucking fake. So what did I do? I outraged. It was her luck that she wasn’t on MSN when I found out, or else there would be extreme rage instincts.

Then, on the weekend, I went to a friend’s house, and talked to my godmother about what’s been happening to me lately. I almost cried because I remembered every-fucking-thing about the time me & my ex were together. (and to make things worse, I ate the same fucking ice-cream that made me remember that shit.) Also, you’re probably thinking: “But Dark, why are you whining about this? It’s not like anything new, she broke up with you, tis ok.”. No. NO. Wanna know why it’s nothing new? Because this was my first ever fucking relationship. And it only lasted one fucking week.

And to really make matters worse, during a school class with the local psychologist, she played one song (out of many) that was the same music she sent me on the day the ex said to me: “I love you”.

Now you understand why it’s hard to get her off my motherfucking mind.

And this goes into the box. So long.

I WILL be off the internet…for 2 weeks. I need to get my head straight up and calm down about what’s been around my mind lately. like, for example, heartbreaks and knees.

Some exceptions to this 2-week break are:

- Twitter
- RadioSEGA
- Rumble Pack
- MSN (I’ll ocasionally appear offline or busy)
- Skype (in case I need to be apart of a show or something.)
- And, of course, this little blog.

I’m sorry I had to do this, but…I need to relax a bit.Even my knee isn’t getting a bit relaxed. Thank you for understanding.

By the way, this is going into the box. Again, see you in 2 weeks.

I’ll never stop being friends with you.
I’ll never be irritated because of you.
I’ll never threaten to leave the Internet for a long time because of you.
I’ll never say “I hate you.” truthfully.
I’ll never say that I’m sad because you did something to hurt me.
I’ll never stop saying “I like you” in the friendly way.
I’ll never be sad when thinking about you.
I’ll never abandon you.
I’ll never ignore you.
I’ll never forget you.

Thank you for these 4 months (and hopefully more) of good times. You are the best thing that I’ve ever been with.

And this is going into the box. See you in 2 weeks.